Fading Existence

As the flower of the field he shall pass away. It’s petals wilt and the beauty of it’s appearance is destroyed. So too is the man in the midst of his pursuits. At the very moment everyone is looking on in admiration at it’s beautiful face it fades away to nothing

So many blessings just make me…


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Some cancer info


I know this is a little longer, and I know we always hear: doing x causes cancer or eating such and such causes cancer, but the notes in this article are things that I have repeatedly seen in research.

While I know this may not change your life, let it encourage you to just be aware of these different issues. ie – if you are a meat lover – When it says that a meat based diet is harmful, don’t think -this isn’t for me cause I am definitely not becoming a vegan – don’t think – this is useless cause it’s too hard, just keep the fact in mind and try to add variety to your diet and don’t ALWAYS eat meat.

Anyway check out this info:

John Hopkins Update 


Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins : 

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size. 

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person’s lifetime. 

3  When the person’s immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors. 

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors. 

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system. 

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastrointestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc. 

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs. 

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction. 

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications. 

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites. 

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.. 


a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses, but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in color. Better alternative is Bragg’s aminos or sea salt. 

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk cancer cells are being starved. 

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer. 

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C). 

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it. 

12.. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines becomes putrefied and leads to more toxic buildup. 

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body’s killer cells to destroy the cancer cells. 

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the bodies own killer cells to destroy cancer cells.. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body’s normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells. 

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger, un-forgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life. 

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells. 

1. No plastic containers in micro

2. No water bottles in freezer

3. No plastic wrap in microwave

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at Walter Reed ArmyMedical& nbsp;Center as well. Dioxin chemicals cause cancer, especially breast cancer. Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don’t freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic. Recently, Dr. Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Cast le Hospital, was on a TV program to explain this health hazard. He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat. He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body. Instead, he recommends using glass, such as Corning Ware, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn’t bad but you don’t know what is in the paper. It’s just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper. The dioxin problem is one of the reasons. 

Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooke d in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead.  


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Juice recipe


So today I made the best juice I think I’ve ever had. I felt like I should share even though it’s pretty straightforward:

1 cup green grape juice*

1 cup apple (fugi and golden delicious)*

1/2 cup pineapple juice*

1 orange – juiced *

* these juices are all freshly pressed, strained and served chilled.

P.S. I also found that if you add a small amount of ginger root juice to carrot, it helps.

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In Design: Science of the fast


Scientists and medical experts are continually confirming the Truths of God’s Word as they discover evidence revealing His design.Unfortunately, many, even Christians, believe that Scripture contains errors when it comes to matters of science. This thought process disregards the fact that our Creator was the very One who set the ‘laws of science’ in motion – that by definition science is the study dealing with a body of facts or truths systematically arranged and showing the operation of general laws of the physical world”* the physical world created by Him. This line of thinking also disregards the innerrancy as Scripture must be accurate in all things in order to conserve validity.Among many much more basic scientific principles is the, not so newly discovered, confirmation of His design involving the medical advantages of the Scripturally laid out fast.Although Fasting has numerous spiritual benefits, those in the medical field now encourage individuals to fast for health reasons as well. In the fasting state, the body will scour for dead cells, damaged tissues, fatty deposits, tumors, abscesses, all of which are burned for fuel or expelled as waste. Toxins stored within cells which are often stored over the years will also be eliminated; cells will be regenerated and new cells growth rate will rapidly increase. The elimination of these obstructions restores the immune system functionality and metabolic process to an optimum state. Cell regeneration can occur during a fast in much more drastic measures than during a solid diet.During extended fasts the body removes: dead, dying and diseased cells; unwanted fatty tissue, trans-fatty acids, hardened coating of mucus on the intestinal wall; toxic waste matter in the lymphatic system and bloodstream; toxins in the spleen, liver and kidney; mucus from the lungs and sinuses, imbedded toxins in the cellular fibers and deeper organ tissues; deposits in the microscopic tubes responsible for nourishing brain cells and excess cholesterol.One individual said of fasting -cannot remember source from notes- “The other very important aspect is that your self-awareness will be elevated. If you are sick and depressed, then this might be the most important thing you can try in your healing program, because it gives you immediately an energy boost and increased awareness which might allow that you see things more clearly, allowing you the first step out of your sickness and onto the path of recovery. While fasting you become more aware of your body process, your life and with everything you are doing. It becomes a period where you can evaluate all that you’re doing more objectively, and you naturally have more time for contemplation because you aren’t using time amassing, preparing, eating, eliminating and cleaning up all which is used to prepare food. You become more aware of what your body likes and doesn’t like when you start to eat again. You gain self-confidence in your ability to control your life process, to set a goal and carry out an intention.”Not only has fasting in general been found to provide health benefits, but also the ways in which Scripture exemplifies fasting gives insight into the different kinds of fasts which may be beneficial.A. J. Carlson, Professor of Physiology, University of Chicago, states that – Although protein is being used by the body during the fast, a person fasting even 40 days on water will not suffer a deficiency of protein, vitamins, minerals or fatty acids. In the breakdown of unhealthy cells, all essential substances are used and conserved in a most extraordinary manner. There is an unwarranted fear of fasting that strength diminishes from the catabolism of proteins from muscle fibers. Even during long fasts, the number of muscle fibers remains the same. Although the healthy cells may be reduced in size and strength for a time, they remain perfectly sound. Furthermore, a healthy, well-nourished man can live from 50 to 75 days without food, provided he is not exposed to harsh elements or emotional stress. Human fat is valued at 3,500 calories per pound. Each extra pound of fat will supply enough calories for one day of hard physical labor. Ten pounds of fat are equal to 35,000 calories! Most of us have sufficient reserves, capable of sustaining us for many weeks.Below I’m listing several different types of fasts and some general health information I have put together about the differences. Pastor Gus did a study about the different fasts in Scripture so below I am only listing the general categories and how they affect the body medically.Types of FastsThe best is efficient fast is one that slowly eases your body into the fast – starting with raw fruits and vegetables and broths, then moves to only juices, then a few days of water, and a day of an absolute fast, then slowly works its way back up through the types. MAKE SURE YOU COME OFF SLOWLY. Don’t pig and eat a lot of sugar and red meat your first meal off. Absolute Fast(Total)- meaning no food(solid or liquid) and no waterNot recommended for longer than three days unless called and provided for supernaturallyThis creates a rapid body detoxification and can shock your system if your body has not detoxed recently or if your body is unprepared.Digestive system’s work is drastically reduced allowing the immune system to operate with greater healing efficiency.Water FastWater onlyBody breaks down fat at the maximum rate (catabolism). – releasing toxins at a potentially shocking rate — though not as rapid as an absolute fast, because water fasting detoxes a great deal quickly, it is not advised to go to a long water fast without either some prior detox or the ability to rest as toxins may weaken your system.Less effective than juice fasting for long-term and intensified healing but periodic water fasting can increase healing by boosting immunity and energy the body places on regeneration.Avoid tap water and mineral water- because inorganic minerals cannot be absorbed into the cells of the body — Distilled is the best because of its ability to absorb large quantities of toxins. Distilled is the best, and filtered or spring water is second (Brita works for this)Juice Fastthis uses fresh raw juice not blended as the pulp use the same digestive energies as when you eat whole fruits and vegetables. Store bought juices can have sugars and preservatives that can slow the cleansing process and do not contain the nutrients and energy in ‘live juices’.Juices are good up to 24 hours after juicing — average intake 32-64 ounces a day plus 6 glasses of water a day.This is the choice for detoxification and healing because it supplies an abundance of nutrients including enzymes and calories to reduce cleansing intensity to a more comfortable level.Basic DanielScripture states that “I ate no pleasant food, no meat or wine came into my mouth” so this fast has many different interpretations, however, for many the Daniel fast has come to include:

All fruits, All vegetables, All whole grains, All nuts and seeds, All legumes, All quality oils, Water, and Other: tofu, soy products, vinegar, seasonings, salt, herbs and spices.

while avoiding such foods as:

All meat and animal products, All dairy products,All sweeteners, All leavened bread, All refined and processed food products, All deep fried foods, All solid fats, Beverages including but not limited to coffee, tea, herbal teas, carbonated beverages, energy drinks, and alcohol.

Final Word — During the course of the fast, remember your intentions for your fast. Do not lust after food or see the fast as punishment for your body. It is important to remember God’s plan for your body during a fast and the healing and cleansing that takes place. This will allow you to deal with the temptation that comes with a fast. You should mentally look forward to a fast and all that God will in your life through the fast. The more you focus on the foods you cannot eat the harder the battle will be. Instead focus on God’s incredible plan for fasting and how the process is rejuvenating your body. This will allow you the mentality not to ‘overcome the fast’ but to embrace the process – I say this not in a new agey way, but rather in a – yes your mindset really does affect your body and its reactions to this process. God desires a willing attitude, not one of grumbling resentment, and this attitude will ease the strain of the fast no matter how long.

 So this is my little did you know for the day :-). Hope that this is beneficial for anyone who had been trying to learn a little more about fasting. I know I went a little long… this is after I left out a lot of my notes, but the topic really interested me.*science. (n.d.). Dictionary.com Unabridged. Retrieved January 08, 2010, from Dictionary.com website: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/science 

Companion Comfort


::WARNING – when I first wrote this note it was a flowery flowing piece and I rewrote it free writing striving for a plainness. It may be more halting to read, for those of you who know my writing, than you may be used, but I want it to be the simple story and not the flowing ’emotional-logicizing’ (i know it’s not a word) I so often express::

Fighting to understand whether it was anger or sorrow, desperation or frustration, apprehension or some other emotion he could not identify the young man could contain himself no longer. Thoughts swirled in his mind clouding his vision and he began to run. He ran slowly at first then burst forth with utter disregard to those who may condemn his abandonment of the civilized standard.

Friends and passersby attempted to still his madness, many only as a half-hearted gesture for the show of offering help to a pitiful case. They reached out a tentative hand which phased him little except to make him wary of the acts of kindness. A great many shouted warnings and threats he stumbled along a rough twisting way. Some bold souls went to such an effort that they stood and tried to block his way. This only taught the young man to avoid running close to others as they might thwart the escape from his desperate place.

The more they yelled, screeched, lectured, and attempted to deter this emotional escapade, the more he felt as if none understood and ran faster, daring not to slow, for fear that ‘they’ would catch him. Those on the sidelines gossiped, scorned and judged as they voiced their ‘concerns and prayers’ for the young boy.

But one man, looked up from his quiet work solemnly. This man stood apart from those gawking on the sidelines, apart even from those with genuine intentions yet with no way of consoling the boy. The man saw the boy and stood, honest concern showing in his wise eyes. Instead of glaring in pity or yelling in vain, the older man quietly laid down the work from his hands and locked the door to his shop. He took up the road with a calm quick step and followed the younger boy. When he reached the young man he pulled up beside then strode with him step for step.

He didn’t say a word or try to catch his eye he just shared in the boys lone path. The young man at first glanced nervously, skeptical of the older man. He braced himself for a harsh confrontation, and yet after a ways of hearing only the pounding of his companions feet, the boy’s shoulders relaxed and his demeanor calmed. He nodded to the man and the man smiled back as they continued along the way.

As the time went on the the young man spoke, the older listened quietly and their pace began to slow. The old man spoke to the boy with words of understanding and the two shared small stories to pass the time. As the hours passed the two began walking then resting along the way.

The troubles of the boy were still the same, his worries didn’t vanish in the air, but he wasn’t alone now on his once lonely trail.

It seemed that though the people knew that the road was rough and that the young man couldn’t run forever, what helped him most were not their solutions, or warnings, not their yells and screams, but someone to understand and commune. What helped was someone to run with along the way. This for the boy, came from the older man who had once before, already traveled along the way.

Sometimes all I can do is run, but that I can do.

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Judgment D.O.A.


More than 300 people were saved during Judgment 2009. God is unbelievably indescribably incredible.

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Last night


One more night, three more shows, of Judgment D.O.A. It’s a bittersweet thing.

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Busy + moe to do =….


What is busier than not having a spare second?… that’s where I am. Anyone need a project?

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I can’t turn my brain off of Judgment… and for once… I really want to. I’m exhausted, I have class tomorrow, homework to be done… This is not productive

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Judgment Update


I’m working on the Script some more today. It’s coming out in an awesome way and we are working on the casting process this week. Everyone gear up it’s gonna be an awesome year!

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Well the not bringing Judgment home with me lasted a long time. I’m home working on it. I’m trying to get the script finished before I leave for the beach. I finished up the 1st draft for the stage set in google sketchup.

I’m starting to get excited about getting started.

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So we have begun. Actually a few weeks ago. This year Marcus and I are scriptwriting. I’m supposed to get it roughly written and Marcus will add more demon dialogue and we’ll review and make changes. I’m nervous and excited. I’m praying like crazy because I want it to be what God wants and not what I want. So if you think of it, keep me in your prayers.

I’m finding that I have to force myself to take breaks or I will just get in a writing streak and will spend long periods of time on heavy scenes. It’s kinda exhausting.
Spending a lot of time at the church especially afternoons when everyone goes home and I have the place to myself. I’m forcing myself not to take the script home because I know that I wouldn’t put it down while if I take it with me.

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Still beyond reach


With more and more graphics taking on the loose grunge effect or the crude hand-drawing styles becoming more used and appealing online I’m going back to my strong desire for a tablet.

The problem is that there isn’t really a student or amature grade tablet so the starting price is much higher than I can really justify right now. But I still think they are still really pretty to look at.

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So I’m always thinking… once X happens, I will have free time, or I will be able to do this…

But it never happens. As it is I do have more time to schedule at the moment. But that just doesn’t seem to keep me from filling up all the time.

The good thing is that I am taking some time to relax. Jonathan and I have been trying to go bikeriding at least a couple times a week. It nearly kills me, but it’s good for me I guess. I’ve had a lot of other things going on, but I won’t be a bore. Just thought I’d update since I haven’t in forever and say that life is… well pretty normal for me.

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I AM DONE!!!!!!

I aced my last test. Completed all of my projects so much ahead of time that I had no stress and I’m finished. I have one other thing to send in, but I’m not supposed to till tomorrow and it’s already done.

Yay for school being out!

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How do you understand something entirely… but not get it at all?

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Ok quickly,

I’m still graduating in the fall. I’ve skipped all but two classes this week (with teacher’s permission) to help with the relief efforts. It was such a blessing to see the community come together and to see so many with such a willingness to help. God has given me so much and sometimes I think I forget how blessed I really am.

In other news, I’m actually finally really realizing that my little brother is a teenager, mustache, voice cracks, acne, and all he’s not a tiny kid anymore :-(.

Classes are out in about two weeks and that makes me ecstatic.

And I get to sleep in tomorrow morning!!!

Oh last note, I will be posting Rome pictures tomorrow (finally).

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So those of you who know me know that I am most definitly not a fan of country music, but I will admit that I like the lyrics of This Song but that still doesn’t mean I like country music. I just get the feeling.   

I feel like heart injury is akin to physical wounds in that they may heal over, they may become more bearable, but the scars remain, and the twinges always come back… some mornings you wake up and it seems fairly normal and other days it feels like the injury is as bad as it’s ever been… that’s jut the nature of the thing.. Talked to someone the other day about how this anniversary wasn’t as bad… but then some days.. for no reason at all it’s flares up again.

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The school situation is now resolved.. I took the bad with the good and wanted it to just be over. I ended up taking an F in the course in order to have the situation settled rather than draw it out with the judiciary process. The good thing is that even taking the F in the one course it will only bring my GPA down to a 3.66 so I will retain my scholarships.

It also still keeps me on course for graduating in December which is a huge relief.

In other news I was asked to be part of a shoot in Nashville tomorrow for a Dave Ramsey curriculum video, and a few friends and I are trying to get plans together to shoot a few small projects over the summer.

I’m also putting together a site to showcase some of my freelance stuff so that I can hopefully start earning a little more in that area. I’ve got the domain and the site is technically ‘up’ but it’s very not ready so I will let everyone in on that a little later.

I’ve had a couple of shoots recently and I’m trying to get all of the photos edited so I can send them out and get paid for those. I love being able to do challenging and interesting things and call it work… so that’s been my life recently. How’s everyone else been?

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